Thursday, August 14, 2008

Livin la vida l'aspirin

I have a headache. This is a daily occurrence.

Reading - it's about all that I have been doing outside of work lately. Work has been very busy, and it will only get busier. I'm almost too tired to read when I get home, but I do it anyway staying up till the wee hours.

I have forced myself to get back into knitting my twisted flower socks. I am about halfway done with sock #2.


So my deal with myself is that I knit a couple rows and then I'm allowed to read a chapter. I am doing this to keep from flying through Breaking Dawn too quickly. By the way - don't investigate that link too closely if you don't want spoilers. I haven't read any of the reviews, and I will not until I finish the book. I bought the second and third books of the Twilight series on CD so I can re-listen to them. I listened to Twilight when I was in L.A.
I want to drag it out as long as possible, but wankers all over the Internet are publishing spoilers left and right, so I am trying to weight my wish to put it off with the horror that someone might ruin it before I finish reading it.
Ugh.

I have been wanting to write a lot, but I am not doing a very good job of making myself do so. I have even been having massive amounts of very memorable dreams. This is the easiest way to write - it's already all there, you just have to write it out. Easy peasy, but I have been slacking on that. I don't write them down cause I'm sleepy and then I can't remember them later in the day or I left my notebook at home. I am a disgrace.

I have a vague recollection of being the trophy wife of some old man. He was a nice looking old man, and I actually think it was Bill. He was super rich and had all kinds of houses and stuff, and I remember thinking he was awesome.

The books I read seriously inject themselves into my subconscious sometimes.

OK - enough for now. Headache and heart murmur still with me.

Monday, June 9, 2008

cheer me up. i am cheered.

My brain has something like a low buzz - a hum - going on inside. The noise of high voltage wires when you are in a quiet enough area to hear their sound.
It is the buzz of possibilities, but it is the smoothness of relaxation. It is an excitement and anticipation of something that I do not know. But the relaxation being there is unison is a bit odd. Smooth is the only word I can think of to describe it.
My brain is having problems concentrating on objects, people, places, things, but I do not seem to have a problem in thinking of the adjectives to describe those things. Although maybe I can not think of the *perfect* adjective.
Did you rub my lamp? Did you wake me up? Did you bring me here?

Why did you bring me here? Why start it if you are not going to follow through. There is never a finish. Why put out the advertisement if you never plan on purchasing or selling it? Abstraction.
Make sure that the love you offer up does not fall on barren soil.

"The soil is not barren, but it's mine."

So prone to worshiping I am on the one hand, and so completely vehemently against it on the other. And so let down so easily, but lifted up as easily at times it seems.

"love me, and cheer me up
show me you're the one who can make me happy
cheer me up, c'mon and cheer me up
I don't wanna spend the rest of my days in yesterday's daydream.."

But I kind of do want to spend the rest of my days in yesterday's day dream. Sometime about that seems incredibly appealing to me. Living out my dreams in the only place where they will ever come true 100%.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Los Angeles

OK - So know of any cool stuff to do in LA? I haven't been there in years, and the last couple of times I went, I just hung out with my dad. I need stuff to keep me occupied. I always go with no plans whatsoever and then I realize I missed a bunch of cool shit when I get back. Any ideas?

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Slackadaisical

I have been seriously slack about doing much of anything lately except for reading and listening to Clark Howard. I have gotten my brain all wrapped around personal finance stuff again. I kind of let it lie dormant for a while, but now that I actually have some money, I want to do useful things with it other than just buying yarn and yarn winders and swifts and stuff.
I haven't been knitting much at all lately, but I need to finish up an Easter basket I am making for Amelia, because Easter is creeping up mighty fast. I am almost done with it though, actually. So, it shouldn't be a big deal.
I have been rabidly listening to Clark Howard though, seriously. I used to listen every day when I had a super long commute, but I haven't listened in probably 5 years or more. I have been downloading podcasts like a junkie and perusing his website. I am often heard to say, "Well, I heard on NPR that..." and lately I have been saying, "Well Clark Howard says ..."

It is kind of a sad life I lead, but he seems like such a nice guy. I am sure I will get burned out on it again at some point. And I haven't skipped out on NPR. I am still listening to it too. I drive a lot, so I have time for lots of podcasts.

And I have been reading a (nother) nutrition book. Eat, Drink, and Be Healthy. I was really jamming on it until I got to the current chapter which is about vitamins, and it is full of all these conjectures and studies which cancel each other out, and it has gone from what seemed like sound advice for chapters and chapters to something which sounds more like a load of BS.

I am at work right now, and I am bored to tears. I have something I could be working on, but it's my annual review, and I HATE writing those things. And then, I have to write up a review for my non-student worker employee, and I hate that almost as much. So, I'm putting it off.

I am going on a week-long vacation in April to who knows where. I haven't been on an actual and factual vacation like this in a really really long time. I hope it's fun, and I hope we find somewhere cool but not too expensive to go.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Brighten up, hippies

Seriously - do organic fabrics and yarns have to be so frigging boring? What if I don't *like* brown and beige, huh?

What if I like bright ass purple and midnight blue and blood red???? And - yep, this is a major stretch here - what if I want a cool PATTERN? Like skulls or something? Can't people who want organic cloth like skulls too??? All of the organic patterns have f'ing butterflies and crap. Wtf???

So - here is my request of you, hippies who own your own business - make something that would be interesting to people who aren't hippies and you might make some money. Hippies spend all their money on weed anyway.

OK and for real - this site I am currently perusing which does no straying from the beige/brown motif has actual pictures of people hugging trees. No joke.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Hi there bloggy land!

I have neglected you so. Go ahead and blame Ravelry, because when I have something knitting related to think about, I usually go there. I don't write on there, though, I just post new pictures of projects in progress.

Speaking of projects in progress, I am working on 3 right now. One I will abstain from mentioning till later.

The first one is the Sleepy Snake from MochiMochiLand. Mine isn't going to be as cute, but oh well. I'm totally done with all of the knitting. Just have to felt it a bit and sew on eyes, ears, toupees - you know, the usual.

Sleepy Snake and Mischievous Mouse


I might post pictures of my own version when I get finished. My snake is black and red and my mouse is gray and pink.

The other project is the knitting needle bag

That link is probably going to fuzzle up, but it's a neat bag knitting in trinity stitch (looks like little bobbles) with the last row at the top on each side left on the needles permanently. I have a couple of sets of badass needles I've been perusing online. I want some snazzy jazzy decorative ones. My bag is a pewter-gray color. The pattern hurts my wrist, but I like the way it looks so far. I am dreading when I get to the point of making the handles. ughhhhh I hate purse handles.

Anyway - so that stuff is pretty boring. See why I haven't updated?

I am going to see Al Gore speak on Thursday. Should be fun.

Back to my tea now.

Oh yeah - and I ended up becoming the chairperson of some library committee, so yay. I hope I don't regret it later.